Tuesday, March 18, 2008

City of the Dead

On Saturday, March 15, our group was guided around parts of Santiago by a man named Andreas. He was a member of a leftist group that opposed the rule of the Pinochet dictatorship. Our first stop was the plaza in front of La Moneda, the site of the military coup that ended the Allende government. On the side of the building is a large door labeled ¨80¨ where the executive would enter the building in the morning. After the coup, the door was boarded up, a symbol to the people that by boarding up the door, the Pinochet dictatorship would attempt to erase executive traditions.

The last time Allende was seen alive was in the third window from the left. His death was said to be a suicide, but who would commit suicide with an AK-47?

After seeing the sights around the downtown center, we went to the Cemeterio General, which was constructed to look like a city of the dead. It seems to expand forever in every direction. It was my favorite place we saw on Saturday. We visited many graves of the past presidents of Chile, labor leaders, historians, and other important historical figures. After much wandering, we found the tomb of Salvador Allende. What interested me most about the cemetery, however, was the stark class differences that were apparent in the arrangement and presentation of the tombs. Some areas were crowded with apartment-like graves like the one below. Compare that photo with the following one, where there are huge mansion-like structures that house the bodies of entire families. These areas were filled with trees and other foliage, and were remarkably more peaceful. Just as in life, money buys you space and nature.



At the cemetery, I could not help but confront how little becomes of us in death. Many graves were shabby and forgotten. I don´t think I want to be buried in the traditional way, with a gravestone. If there is no one to take care of it, clean it up and bring flowers, it is a lonely and depressing tribute to the vibrancy of life. I hope to be set free and put into the earth more naturally. I will not be caged by the tendency of the human ego to erect monuments that will outlive them.
Next, we went to Villa Grimaldi, the site of a former detention center for political prisoners during the Pinochet era. It has now been turned into a peace park that is rife with symbolism. During its years of operation, an estimated 5,000 prisoners passed through Villa Grimaldi. Of those, 230 were executed, and only 17 of the bodies were ever recovered. The remaining 213 ¨disappeared¨ will probably never be recovered. One of the most haunting exhibits in the park was a giant copper cube that could be entered. Inside it was dark, 18 degrees C, with the sound of the ocean playing. On display were steel poles that were pulled from the ocean. Political prisoners, some from Grimaldi, were pushed from airplanes tied to these poles and fell to their deaths in the ocean. The conditions inside the cube represented what the prisoners must have felt during their last moments of life. Haunting.
Below is a picture of a rose garden. The roses were planted for all the women that passed through Villa Grimaldi, and were labeled accordingly.

This was another beautiful and haunting section of the park. It was the former cite of the prisoners´cells, and now there is a brick pathway grid. Inside each square is a birch tree, symbolizing how even in such circumstances, life will still go on and fight through. The creators of the park chose birch trees because by nature their bark has imperfections that resemble wounds.


Villa Grimaldi was an unsettling experience for all of us. Later that day at the asado, I spoke to Andreas, who had been detained in the South for 46 days, in Spanish and said, ¨Thank you for teaching us about what happened at Villa Grimaldi. I think it is important to understand the past.¨ Andreas said to me: ¨Yes, and don´t you forget.¨




Friday, March 14, 2008

Euphoria

After four flights in two days on almost no sleep, I am here in Santiago. The flight into Santiago was beautiful...the sun was setting over the mountains and casting a rosy haze into the valley. It was the perfect introduction to what has proven to be an interesting city so far. I have yet to venture beyond the few blocks of downtown that contain our hostel, but there is so much to look at! We are very close to some parks and the Plaza de Armas, and the Belles Artes museum (Museum of Fine Arts), and we should have some time this weekend and next to explore. My new friends and I are going out to a reggaeton club tomorrow night. Reggaeton is a type of music that is very popular here-the song ¨Gasolina¨ is a good example of what reggaeton sounds like. Since I love to dance, I´m excited to put my moves to the test in a new style!

We have been in training for the past two days, and it has been good to have some information and clam some of my anxiety. The best news of all is that I have my placement and host family information! I will be moving to Chillan and living with a 60-year-old mama and her 21-year-old son, who is a university student. I am pleased that my host brother is relatively close to my age-and the exact age of my real brother! I hope he will let me hang out with him and introduce me to some interesting people! I have been placed in a high school that is just starting to transition from being an all-girls school, so almost all if not all of my students will be girls. This will be an interesting change for me as a teacher! My host house will be a five-minute walk into downtown Chillan and a fifteen-minute walk to the school, so I will save a lot in transportation fees, which is a blessing.

As cool as Santiago is and as excited as I am to explore the city, I am looking forward to getting to Chillan. It has been a challenge being here with Americans because I feel like I am incubated and not really getting to engage with Chileans. For example, we went out as a group yesterday and bought cell phones. Two of the girls in our group are really strong Spanish speakers, and they did all of the talking and negotiating. While part of me was grateful, I really felt left out of the experience. If given the opportunity, I would have struggled, but it is an experience I want to have. My Spanish has not improved at all, so I can´t wait to be on my own.

On the other hand, it has been nice to ease into the immersion experience. We have received cultural training so that we are prepared for some of the more daunting challenges of navigating Chilean culture. Today we started talking about different aspects of teaching, and I cannot wait to get into the classroom. It was really nice to spend some time talking about theories of language acquisition. I love being back in a (semi)academic environment.

The people in my group are pretty cool, although we don´t know each other well yet. Last night, one of the guys in my group, Andrew, and I went undefeated for three rounds of partner-pool at our hostel. We met a cool guy from Chicago who is staying at the same hostel as us. He is 25 and out trying to ¨find himself.¨ I know the feeling. I like the energy of the expat community here. Everyone has seen so much more of the world than me, and have so many interesting stories and perspectives.

Since I have only been here a short time, I have not had the chance to feel homesick or miss home yet. We talked in training about the arc of culture shock, and how this first time of euphoria can last for up to several months. However, I know I will hit bottom and have some ¨dark days.¨ Hopefully not for awhile!

It has been difficult to adjust my body and my bloodsugars to this new way of life and new diet. I have been running low all the time, and it has been a challenge to eat good food at regular intervals. However, I am going to the grocery store tonight to stock up on fruit.

I´m really looking forward to tomorrow. We are taking a ¨human rights¨tour of Santiago, going to a cemetery and a memorial park at the site of a major detention center during the Pinochet dictatorship. After our fieldtrip, we are going to an asado (BBQ!) at another park. Asados, apparently, are significant events in Chile, and are used to celebrate many different things. We will be meeting some other volunteers from a different program that have been here a month or so. Hopefully tomorrow I will finally have some time to take some pictures.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Reasons why today has been rough:

1. I finally checked my email this morning after a busy weekend, only to discover that before I start the Ministry training on March 22nd, I need to complete a 45-minute Spanish test and two lessons online. Here I am now, at nearly 11 p.m., waiting for a confirmation email so I can log in to the website. I'm tired, pissy, and I've cried a lot today. Is now really the best time to test my Spanish-speaking ability? I can tell you already what the test will reveal: I'm a beginner.

2. I had a really nice dinner with my dad tonight. On the way out of the restaurant, I dissolved into tears and cried so hard on the way home that I had to blow my nose into my sleeve. The sweatshirt in question is now in the wash machine.

3. My luggage still exceeds the weight limit, despite several rounds of packing. I love watching several hundred dollars worth of supplies get tossed in a box that may or may not be mailed to me at some point in the next year.

4. I ripped a hole in my brand-new duffel bag while trying to weigh it. After that, I decided to take a break from packing.

5. In approximately five hours, I will be on the way to the airport. This does not leave much time for sleeping. I really wanted to enjoy my last night in my own bed!

6. I am dreading struggling through airports with all my stuff for the next two days. I just want to be in Santiago. Please please please!

7. I don't want to say goodbye to my mommy.

Despite all of these setbacks, I'm almost ready to go.

Goodbye, USA! See you in one year!

The End of an Era


I am going to miss my brother.

Friday, March 7, 2008

Last day of work


Sad times. I don't get to see this mug M-F anymore.